time flies.
Just had my maths CA..soon the life science one is coming and then...the other subjects.

Just finish watching 'shooting stars'. Hur hur hur.
I was grinning away in front of the tv. My dad say i crazy. But Sylvester super cute okie!!!!!!!
Fine, i might be hallucinating whenever he speaks to his on screen love interest. lolx.
Ai yer....

I saw Maia on Monday!!! LoLx. I could recognise her from her back. Goodness. She look good u know. no wonder sylvester was interested in her in the past. Haha...

bought new bag. Bought new shoes.

Againn???

LoLx. Nice ma. Hur hur hur.

Had my RCIA meeting this noon. Somehow i woke up much much earlier than usual, and i took the effort to dress up. Cuz the ignorant me thought that ill be having plans for the day. But i guess everything and anythign is planned. I wore the wrong heels. It would go great with my new skirt and my new bag. But it gave me blisters. And after church, i realise that i do not have plans for that evening. So all the effort to dress up whatsoever has gone down to the drain. Went straight home to change. Somehow it made me feel better knowing that i am out of the effort of ecpecting and not getting it.

It was a utter failure. But like i always tell myself, there are things planned for the path you are on. As soon as someone didt go with my plan, someone else sms me right that moment to arrange for a outing. But the point aint there anymore.

I am so tempted to just get a kick out of it. But deep within the conscience, i shant fall back into the old rocky path. Forget it.

Met up with some old colleagues yesterday. It just transport you back to the past. Although things are definitely different. Had a holland sourvenior!!!! Porcelain shoes..miniature ones thought. Practical me dosent know where to put them.

Yesterdays was Victors bday. And actually wanted to have dinner..but i guess the timing dosent suit me. The place dosent suit yang and Vic is attached to his MJ. lolx. Did i have to emphasize how unsmooth the day is?

I think its karma. whichever way you treat someone else, the next time round. You get served. Funny huh?


First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I’ll take yours and fill it all up
Third one, but I don’t need a lot of wishes
cause I’ll be okay if I get one
If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
-- RayJ (One Wish)

It has been ages since i last had time to sit down and really focus on my tutorials.

HL mentioned that JC life is actually harder than that of Uni's. I beg to differ. I dont have great teacher like Cox.

Oh yeah, Villa Wellness is on TV tonight. Why arent i informed of such a reality show????

I would have signed up for it you know. Heck about the embarrasment. If you can come out 10kgess lighter. Why not?

I mean the detox was horrible thought. Having to pop pills and drink lime water every day for a week. *Bleahhhhhh* Puking sia. Then they put a basket of fried chicken wings inf ront of them to tempt. i was salivating infront of the tv. Why wouldnt i give in to temptation? LoL. Eeee.sickening me.

Jon Johnson was there!!! Aiyooo...sharing a jacuzzi with him somemore. Why i wasnt made known to such a program??!!!!!! Jon Johnson ok!!!



Changed my time table. Moving the afternoon slot to tuesday. So i can go home after ten thirty! Woohoo!

i think things comes planned in my life. In everything i know there somehow things has their way.

i found the most perfect song.

Sometimes we wish for the better
When we have it good as it gets
Sometimes the grass isn't greener
As soon as we find out, we forget
Sometimes a fool doesn't know he's a fool
Sometimes a dog, he don't know he's a dog
Sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really don't mean it at all

Sometimes a man is gon' be a man
Its not an excuse, its just how it is
Sometimes a wrong, don't know that they wrong
Sometimes the strong, ain't always so strong
Sometimes a girl is gon' be a girl
She don't want to deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl, I'm sorry for the stupid things
I wish I didn't do but I do

Sometimes I wish I was smarter
Wish I was a bit more like you
Not making stupid decisions made at the last minute
You live to regret when its through

Babyface- Sorry for the stupid things

I couldnt really find words to write for my previous entry. I wrote a few paragraphs and i got a writers block. Until i heard this song, googled its lyrics. My goodness, can anything describes it better?

Sometimes i didnt do things on purpose. No matter how much i try to make things work, but they always screw up. I cant help it. Really.

Sometimes you keep having this tingling feeling when you are quarelling..do you? I used to have, am having and always have that kind of reaction. After a while of stubbornes you just wanna let down your defences and give in. And it is the thought of all the letting go, gives me that tingling feeling.

Met her today. And what really brought my world down is when she cried. The moment she let her tears flow, i realise how vulnerable we really are. I asked myself, if i was the one, standing there crying, would i be comforted by the ideal one? Of cuz i couldnt do much except offering her tissue, because i know that there is only one person that can stop the precious tears from flowing.

From the beginning of time, there is really one person that knows how i respond to sadness. I dunno why i happen to mention that. Its supposed to be a little secret with yourself.
During the wb era, tears meant nothing much to me. I could cry everywhere and anywhere. And that scares the hell out of my secondary friends. One incident was in school and another in Burger king. I was just not myself. I thought that by acting horrifcally crazy, i could get someone i lost back to my side. And after that psychotic 2 years, i told myself that there was no point putting in so much effort and not getting anything back.

And so till now, i had unknowingly fzllen over the cliff. i already forgotten what i set out to do. And its really amusing to think that i am willing to go all out to secure that solo position. But like so many examples that revolved around me, i suddenly am at loss of what to do. How much effort to put in. How much am i withholding...

why do people compare?

Commitment : whats the deal about it.

this question has been bugging me throughout the night.

Soem people just have commitment phobias. Majority of the guys for example. And honestly, i can never ever be totally trustful of the slef declared commitment level a guy says. Its like, i hold back, placing a barrier in bwtween. Just in case i get sabo-d.

She mentioned that i seem much more committed. If not very. relativity to the past. I always thought i was pretty commited in the previous relationship. After QR appeared, apparently that was not what i thought. Everyone predicted that though. they knew i would stray. they knew sooner or later, when the Ex went overseas, ill stray. I did. Not on purpose. Even the ex could see it coming. Only i didnt wanna face up to the truth. So months or not years dragged on. And finally, saying goodbye to both of them. And unknowingly, even QR said that it was this on off thingy which makes it even more confusing I couldnt give any promises. I went too far. i could go back. And that marks the end.

For this time round, i ddint have that much thoughts. Or rather, i have keep my mind to a single track. I never ever compared. Postive and negative side to this issue. Never have i wanted anohter one in my life. Fully committed if i would say. Good thing isnt it? becuz the usual practical me is finally throwing evil thoughts away. But here comes the negativity, what if i have been too committed? Thats what she asked. i didnt thought i was this engrossed in the relationship. But now thinign back, yeah. Relatively yes.

This tiem there shall be no more QR. Not even when he is overseas. Becuz i guess at that time, i thought differently. I keep telling everyone saying that the 3rd part just appeared. i didnt make for it to happen. But looking back i realise, if i had the same mentality as i have now, that wouldnt even happen.

Sigh. Horrible.

tomorrow i shall go all out and enjoy!!!!! I cant wait. I jsut tryin to make every second counts.

Met up with Ting just now for a dinner. Actuallly Jeff did come along but in the end i asked him to go home cuz i think my mum was going to join us.

Actually i think i forgot to mention this to Ting..i actually brought Jeff to see my mum. And they did talked. Civilised talk! LoLx. which is one big step already LoLx.

Met up again this evening. Of cuz not without sacrifices. waited for 1/2 hour and carry ton of books. =/ But sacrifices is rather worth it.

Except for 2 weirdos on the bus who kept turnign round to check on us. Bo Liaox.

So ting and i..we were just discussing relationship stuff again..

Complex leh.

I reckon i dont think long term enough.

Happy lo.

LoLx.

These few days passed by like a blur. Mainly due to the hectic circumstances. Furthermore, i experienced occasions of DejaVu. Like really most of the time.

I mean if i have felt the same way, probably a time lag of months had occur. And yeah this aint optimistic. Becuz you suddenly felt like you are stuck in this quagmire and you are purely exasperated.

Yeah and particulary exasperated. Infuriated. And each other behaviour is liken to that of a cosine wave. Of cuz. When one is low at trough the other happily rests at the crest. And when you move further down, both trade predisposition.

It looks bleak. Really bleak. Better to be prudence right now eh?

First Lab session ever in Uni. Totally different from practical sessions in JC. I mean they were practically spoon feedign us with answers. of cuz they flash the answers on powerpoint b4 lettign us start the experiment. but the thing is that everyone basically copied the 'extra notes' not knowing they were answers. And when the lab technician finsih explaining the appratus, she told us that answers were...blah blah blah. My goosness, it was those extra notes!

Finished lab much earlier than planned. 1 hour in fact. Waaaaa.....

4th Month Anniversary

I belive everyone has learn about this term : Saturation point. But pardon me, i am unable to recall from which subject. Probably chemistry i think. And i am beginning to fear that now. Saturation points occurs in many relationship, in many conversations and in many occasions. It occurs at a point when no more can be added.

Today i met up the RCIA groupies at the nearby coffeeshop fr dinner. And in part and bits of our conversation, cheemeng mentioned that guys that got married will stop being romantic. chinese guys in particular. and to affirm that, Andy agrees. Both of them are divourcees, probably they are mentioning thigns that are close to their hearts. Out of my group, only a few of us are not married. Onthe average, the girls in my froup marry at around 26 i think. And then the other girls in our group all agree that yes, their husband no longer hold their hand impromptuly. Except when crossing the road. LoLx.

And this thought occured to me. Do you marry that particular person becuz it was the right time and place or, that is the one and only true love? Honestly i belive in the former. The one and only love wouldnt be so much so your life time partner. For most cases i believe. Not tryign to make a general statement. Love can be nurtured. I mean love is blind. And a blind relationship will send you colliding to a wall.

Today was supposedly a rather impt occasion. Maybe not to some people but it is for me. And the excitedness was there right in the morning. Until i guess there was this sudden saturation point. Whereby i feel that i am not feeling right in place. I dunno why. Maybe its a personal mood thing or maybe its a imagery. But what do you do when you try to take a step forward and a rush of coldness blocks u right at your face. Retreat back, i guess.

Finally went out with Vic and Yiling. Its been ages since i last saw him. And well, throughout the singing session i didnt quite have the chance to really talk to him. And so i was waiting for Yangyang to come and...He fly me aeroplane!!! Ergh* =/

Anyway after 4 hours of boredom, i finally can go have dinner with him. And of cuz, we started talking about whats happening in each and every of our lives. he still am veri animated in the way he talk. Which never fails to make me laugh for like..all the way. Its of cuz the swearign bits that makes it amusing. Nahh..i kinda stop swearing because i have a vulgarities controller around me. LoLx.

After the talk, Vic actually left me with one word of advice. And it is the classic advice that parents tell me. Grandparetns tell me. Teachers tell me. And basically adults that tell the younger generation. Especially girls. And it got me thinking. i really really got methinking.

No matter how many people are always standing up for that particular right. It is the corruption of society's mindset that brought about a revolution of open mindedness. And apparetnly from what i have heard through the days in Jc, in Uni and basically hear say from my pals, i have deemed society to be corroding.

And it applies abit to me because all these are what drove me away from the ex. And it is all these that makes me look at him with loathing. It is all these that makes me convert whatever love to pure disgust. I could never really put my thoughts on my suden change of behaviour at the last hours of the relationship. But i guess i just got sick and tired of it. The main focus of how a relationship should be is no longer there. he drifted away from the point of a relationship and i guess thats what brought a downfall.

For now i guess i never really thought about that area. Because i dont want to to come in and spoil it all. victor was of cuz quizzign me on and on. But i really have nothing to so call...tell him. because i guess things are quite different compared to then. The enthusiasm of curiosity has already faded.

Tomorrow is the start of a new week. School...

What a day. Never ever ever have i been so embarrassed in my life. ok though i know there's probably many things to recall in the past that makes me blush still. Today in fact was one of the biggest boo boos i made!

"Chemical changes are brought about by chemical erections."

Bloody hell. I cant believe i read that out to my tution kid. ARGhhhhhh! She was like stumped. I was like stumped. And i was apologising profusely acting as if nothing major happened.

I cant imagine i just polluted a sec 2 kid with such a careless mistake. What the toot!!!!!

Out again as usual. And back to the place we 'discovered' last week for lunch. i kinda am getting hooked to the spicy chicken over there. Yummers!!! the spicy chicken is liek damm nice you know you know!!!!! Okok im salivating over here. Anyway we basically just spent the whole day in the quieter part of the city area. Moving off from Sutnec to NLB.

Honestly, i am so dissapointed. The govt tore down the one at Orchard and the best they could come up with is a library with little books and many floors of empty areas? Crazy. I mena if there were seats...preferbly comfy sofas den not too bad. we could have spent our whole day lying there lookign through mags and books.

Some people cant stand it when i just wanna spend some time at the library, flipping through the magazines that i cant afford to buy. Hrmph. But now that i ahve someone that compromises well, what the heck about that kidn of people.

tomorrow going Karaoke with Jc pals. Yiling asked me to go and i was like stunned. Hahah but never mind! Ask Da Jie..ohh i mean Vic..Sigh. Tose were thedays when i can still call in that affectionate term. LoLx. yang called int he evening, jsut booked out i guess. Thatsthe thing with OCTs. The feelign of longing only applies to the girl waiting. Hahhaa....But its good for the 3 of us to meet up. So many thigns to fill each other in about. LoLx.

SO many thigns to complete before monday. Tutorials. Tutorials. And more tutorials. Sigh. I looka t tutorials i wanna faint. I look at life science i wanna faint. i look at lipids cell i think of biology, myself and the gym. Sigh.

Have you ever ever felt like you already reached what used to be a maximum and you go further than that?

In the past, i condemm ideas that there is no point in putting so mcuh effort in all you do, no point in being so sticky. LoLx. What was i thinking?

What was i thinking now? The wave of bliss subsided after the pre arranged meetup was postponed. Sigh. Sat through the train in a daze, listening to heart wrenching song.

get yourself together!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know. I wanted to . I tried. lolx. But i couldnt. I sunk into this pool of disappointment. And i had to call Meiting! Haha.

"Pei wo!!" And we met up for a short dinner at Katong Laksa. And i went off to church.

spent more than 2 hours about this sunday and talkin about our god-children. lolx!!

Misses someone so much.

Tell me: Isnt she a beauty. Wah liao. i damm lucky lo! Got her blogskin. hahaha.....

Went through school with a stupid smile on my face. LoLx. I feeel so lame. Even lamer when my friend ask me to stop smiling to myself.

Damm it i cant help it. LoLx. ZH was asking me who is sylvester. Cuz i put this stupid nick on Msn - Sylvester & Dawn. LoLx. Can u believe i did that? hahahha

Rcia tonight! Going to do duty! Going to library! Going to Church! Going to come hoem and prep to go school tomorrow!

Yeah im on cloud nine.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!

Patriotic huh? LoLx. Sigh i seriously hope i was there to absorb the atmosphere!!!

So fast. Time flies. It has been a year since i went there. And of cuz images of last year's NDP still deeply enbedded in my mind. The quarrels while everyone was celebrating. What an irony. The huge fit we had outide my place. Horrible. Horrible. And to think i was that stupid to let all that unhappiness drag on for another half a year. My good ness.

But no this year was so mcuh different. I was and am exhilarated. Hahaha. So much so that i look back at last year and i wonder, what the toot is wrong with me? Why did i continue to get tortured by unhappiness?

Watched Charlie and the chocalate facotry. Nice show i think. hahaha so sad that Jeff had to watch somethign that he dosent enjoy. LoLx. What a waste of money. Hahaha. in the huge crowd of kids. And a auntie next to him who laughs over the smallest thing. Duh. LoLx. And poor him was trying to sit properly. squeezy seats versus long body frame. LoLx. But Century seats are so comfy! Hur hur hur.

Arhh. i think i am so hooked. So addicted. To just his presence. My good ness. Hahahahaha. Never before i think. Never was i like that. And so we were talkign about our plans individually when he goes off to Aust. i dunno. Bad track record apparently dosent matter now. I think that and i am super confident that ill be on my best behaviour while he was away.

Infatuation you know. Horrible me. lolx. I am smitten. LoLx. And i just cant stop smiling. Goodness!

Happy national day people!

Arghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Read This.......

Maylene Loo plays: Dawn, Sylvester's love interest. Maylene spices up the screen in her punk get-up and druggie attitude. Dawn runs from her problems by indulging in dangerous drugs-and-alcohol cocktails. Unknowingly attracting Sylvester into her dark life to protect herself from her own party-animal lifestyle, she allows Sylvester in her heart and gets intimate with him. Look out for a kissing scene between Sly and Maylene!
[www.shootingstars.com.sg]

Aiyooo!!!!! What is this man!!! What is this man!!!!! whahahaha!!!!!

So qiao right? I like Sylvester. And the love interst in his movie is me me me. okok my name sake. But almost the same la. lolx....i dunno. I am just so darn excited about it lo!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha ha. What a day. What a fabulustic dayyyyy!!!!

Can a Marriage survive 15 years of marriage?



















Vows. They're like New Year‘s resolutions– easy to make and impossible to live up to. Instead of going into a marriage vowing "till death do us part," maybe the ceremony should include the question: "Do you have any idea how difficult this is going to be?" And, if you really believe that you do, then and only then, you shouldn‘t say "I do," you should say, "I'll try."

The movie is the very real and humorous examination of Ben and Katie Jordan‘s marriage. After 15 years, the couple is wrestling with the universal paradox: why are the qualities that made them fall in love in the first place now the very things pulling them apart?
During their time apart, both Ben and Katie reflect on the value of their shared history –– the dance, perfected over time, that has made them an "us."

Marriage has always given me hope towards my future. In all that i have ever planned in life, i already chose the venue of my wedding, the gown i would want, who i would invite. i didnt even put this much thought into my career prospects. A marriage, a sacred matrimony between a couple is the driving force that pushes you towards happiness. My desired happiness.

Of cuz problems surfaces even between relationships that i had. And none has been a bed of roses. Instead there were times when breaking up is such a easy thing to do. Like snapping your fingers. But obviosuly, marriage isnt like that. There is so mcuh for you to consider ebfore making the step to saying I do.

After the movie, i realised that the problem between the couple in the movie is that they already lost their usual being after marriage. After kids. Each of them stay together becuz they are just, together. There was no longer this driving need to be lustful, to put it crudely. They no lnger look to their side on bed. The look straight ahead, at the tv set in front. When did tv prog become more impt than your spouse.

When i first started work in Kawah, i knew of a colleague who had a husband back in her homeland. And she did tell me that marriage might be all fun and rosy and exciting in the beginning phase but somehow or another it dies down. You know what i always wanted to do? Wake up with him by my side, sleeping with his eyes closed. Ill dress up and make breakfast and wait for his sleepy frame to move into the white kitchen. Givign me a good mornign kiss, finishing up my ham and eggs and we will all fall back into bed. honestly. that was what i pictured my marriage to be. What i want it to be.

Alicia called me today citing problems that she faced with her husband. And honestly, i would have told her to go ahead with a seperation. but i didnt. Because i wan her to make out the best decision. I am just a bystander. to me, i think it is fruitless to drag on especially with a kid at tow and a somewhat disrespecting husband, whats the point?

By the end of the show where Bruce willis wanna inform the kids that the parents are seperating, Michelle P. actually broke down a cry and started mumbling about how mcuh she missed about their past etc etc. It all ends with a 'I Love you'. 3 words bringing along so much power. 3 words that can make a down person smile. 3 words that brightens up my day.

there are times when you have been quarelling on and on and on over the minimal issues. And none wanna give in. there are times when i really feel like takign the big steps and apologise and just whisper sweet nothings into his ears. I just wanna give in. And these are the times when i can put away my bloody ego and just give in. Those are the times when you really know that, being in love is just so complicated.

The universal paradox still exist. Whatever brings you together no longer holds you ll together. I think its a matter of faith and what more. You cant get a perfect person. You fell in love with that person. People dont change. He was what he was in the beginning. you gotta accept. you aint any more imperfect as the other party am.

B: Guess- 7 words.
M: and they lived happily ever after.
B: not quite. close though.
M: and they lived mostly happily ever after.
B: i hope so.
M: Me too.
B: Me too too.

*kisses*

Purfect!!!

Gelare Outing

Eunice from my Rcia group was thinking about a chill out session. This has got to be the first becuz we usually meet up on wednesday for church and on sundays too. But the idea of a outing outside church is somehwta fresh ad i worry wad are all of us going to talk about. Then she sent out a email specifying that the chilling out shall be opened up for "young" people. lolx. So she decided "830pm at Cartel Siglap". *rub palms* Excited.

Was abit late and i already saw Sharon, Andy, Melissa and Robin. So we sat at cartels and flipped through the menu. Hmm..and we were talking about waffles and i was like " How about we go off to Gelare??" And so we changed the venue.

Chilling out with lots of waffles and free cups of ice water. Ooo of cuz i ordered Passionfruit tea. Damm good!!


Damm..my hair looks horribly messy. Sigh.


Sharon, Me and Genevieve. Sharon was a teacher who resigned recently. And she is married!! Gave me a shock last night when she told us about it. Haha and Genevieve looks damm young for her age.


Me and my inquirers- Andy and Sharon. im so called their god-Mother. lolx..they were talkign about how funny it would be when they call me god-ma!!



Group pic!! Eunice (in peach top) looks damm pretty right?? Haha...she always very enthu and hyper. Lol.x Primary school teacher somemore. lolx...

We had really long talks about personal lives and church. Haha Eunice was the one who keep sounding people out then when she got paiseh of doing that, she passes the baton to me. Haha Things like my inquirers are married and have kids...stunned me lo!! Haha i never knew of such details.

Anyway...really really great outing!! ^^

Celebrated Esthers Bday at Junes Dorm yesterday. They were flungign cake around and so some of us hid under the blanket. I hate cake flungign cuz can u imagine how it looks when pieces of shitty looking choc cake gets stuck in your hair. Ew. Anyway i left with Aldred and we were talking about relationship in a way. I caught him out with a girl but yet, on other occassion others have mentioned caughting him with come other girls. lolx. and suddenly he was like askign me how close am i to the guy he always caught me with. Haha I was like...ehhh u know. haha He dont know there and then cuz he thought was different person. Goodness. Aldred says Jeff looks different from the pic. Thats why he thought i was flirting around. Wahhh liao..

Yesterday after school, i met up with Ting since she was at queenstown and that i was on the way down from Boon Lay. But yet i stop over at Kallang to meet Jeff. Before that Aldred saw a friend from Accounting whom he met over in Union Camp. So he intro=d us and Aldred left at the interchange leavign me to a guy whom i have never spoken to. So i guess had to make conversation out of politeness. And so we talked about school and stuff. Den when Meiting joined, i intro-d them to each other too. Hahah so He is a fren of my fren. Which makes meiting a fren of his fren's fren. Thats how socialising in Uni works. LoLx. And meiting thought i knew him for ages already. LoLx. Deceptive huh.

Been hanging out with 2 friends from my tutorial group. They are really fun people. Especially Huiling. Hahah can talk and joke around kinda girl. Rongshan is this Aaron lookalike. My goodness. Whenever i see him ar, he reminds me of Aaron. LoLx. He is just much taller than A. though.

RCIA group is having a chill out session tonight. Haha "for the young n trendy". LoLx. And the organiser is Eunice who fractured her leg and is on Mc. lolx. Guess she is too hyper to sit at home and slack.

Possesivenes is a relative statement. Its even a subjective one. To one, being possessive might deem to be good. On the other hand, it might deem to be an enstranged way of care. Meiting say i am abit of that. I dunno, i guess its good. Cuz i usually am not possessive. Whahaha. Usually that happens when i totally heck care. But now nope, i can leave my best friend with him alone but yet, feeling still a teeny fidgetive.. LoLx.

Goldfished.

By saying that, i am trying to portray my eyes. My swollen eye lids. The doc say is due to tear retention. Hmmm....hidden tears within me? Haha..the past few days has been a wreck emotionally. Cuz i realise Uni life is not so easy after all. I woke up these morning, feeling droopy. Lack of sleep i guess.

Thats why i went to get myself a refreshign blogskin!!! Haha perks people up right?? =P

Since i didnt go school today, i basically slacked my day at home and trying to pass time by feeding on chocalates. I realise it has been ages since i had one. And i didnt finish it. So much so for chocs being a woman's 2nd best friend.

The past few days of quarrels. I was like really worked up. But Ting say to think of his good points instead of dweeling at the faults he has. And the weirdest thing is he has the minor faults which i get angry at. Relative to mine, i think he deserves credit for always being...being the one that perks me up. i can never get angry at him for too long.

Tried hard enough to meet up Jeff after tuition. And i was in specs. My horrigible specs. i look like Thomas Edison. According to my dear boy. yeha i look basically duh*. U wont understand unless you see me in my 1300deg glasses. Awww i realise what "absence made the heart grows fonder" sentence really meant. Its like sometimes i even feel that i am being too dependent too mcuh. Like really much enough to make me feel inadequate without him.

Its like every second means so so much. The days where his girl pals are here, i flare up. i get mad because every second away from me, i see it as negligance. But since today, we met for only less than 2hours, because for no reason, he is now settled at lakeside. But our schedule clashes. When i am on the way from Boon Lay to eunos, he is on his way from Kallang to Lakeside. Wahhhh...so ever considerate of me shall spent little but quality time. Haha.

Every second is so precious that i make so sure that whatever i wanna say, i say it out. Haha. The way he blushes...awww!! I think i am getting soppier every minute. Lolx.

I wanna meet the gurls. But with the timetable which is un informed..and of cuz Juan is down with virus, i guess it would have to be postponed. Boo. I learnt sooo many songs!

Uni Life isnt as excitin as how i imagined. Maybe in JC, wanting was with me since day 1. And i met great and fab frens like Yang n Vic. But in Uni, the circle is so huge that you get lost in mobs of friendships.

Tomorrow is the welcome masss for the Catholic Society in NTU. Shall miss a session of RCIA. But let me take a look at how CSA works and ill probably join their friday mass or what lo. My schedule so haywire!

Wish my all the luck my dears.