Ok i am abit freaked out.
Whenever you open up your friendster ( which i guess not many matures ppl are doin nowadays), you have like people messaging you?
And if you are a girl, which i am, i would usually expect it to be a guy! Unless well, its a girl whom was my lost and found-pri/sec/jc friend.
Right?

I opened up my friendster today and found a msg sent by a girl! Saying that she wanna be friends.

ok i am creeped out. Then i thought, why should i be? Cant girls make friends?

You know, a couple of years ago, my mum and i went online and decided to help her find a 'pen-pal' from overseas. Female one of cuz, i dont want my dad to kill me.
Anyway she started getting emails from this lady from Indonesia. And they just sent emails to and fro! (Alright, i helped her type, she dont know how to manupilate the keyboard). Yeah and one day, the lady said she is comin singapore. And they met up. And this wen ton for years until she died of cancer. And thru her, that ladys friend also started contacting my muma nd they meet up whenever she comes to singapore.

I mean its how nice and funny things always turn out to be yeah? Its kinda sweet and nice thinking back. i always tell my mum how in awe i am whenever that auntie came to singapore.

Physics paper done! And now i have 2 more papers. Then off ill be to shop!

Jealousy

A guy friend of mine forwarded me a msg the other day. And it was a surprise cuz i haven really heard from him for quite a looong time. And we used to be quite close and all. Visiting each other, and stuff. Yeah and so i replied dutifully " thanks you n nitex"

And to my surprise he actually replied and said that he is sorry for not contacting me for quite some time because his gf wont allow.
And what does it mean by not allowing?
Including not calling or smsing or contacting either of his friends. or isit me only, i dont know.
Anyway it kinda got me thinking- When isit possesive and when isit caring?

Its a very thin line. And honestly, i can be like that sometimes.
Okok all the time.

My theory is that you can always leave the girl and expect her to be on good behaviour and not start flirting like nobodays business.
But you definitely cannot say the same thing for guys.

I have guy friends who are very much attached yet act like this super bachelor whenever we are at clubs or someother social places.
But girls, they would come out and admit that they are attached. But guys? Nah.
ifNo one else knows their status.. the better.

And well, i think a gf can only go to the extent of just trying to watch if the guys go off too many times without her.
I once told jeff that if i ever get married, i wont wanna see my husband hanging around at coffeeshops with a bunch of thugs and pinching the beerlady's butt.
And he rebutted:" I dont think your husband would do that. Only your dad would stay home everyday. Extinct species."

I got aggitated. If my dad can do it, why not other guys? My mums frens' husbands also do the same thing. They are big CEOs for goodness sake, they dont even have to hang out with their friends at night!

I was like: i dont see why the hell guys have to spend their nights out when they have wife n kids waiting for them!
And he just shook his head and lamented that i am just being childish.
I was practically gonna turn the tables over.
I told him that precisely i wanna make it happen, thats why i never had and never would find a boyfriend who smokes, drinks or club.
Maybe he can club la..but not those that goes everyweek. I dont even go every week can!

I think i am really going nuts. My heart beats so fast and i just grip on my seat. And i wanna throw the phone to the ground. Why am i the only person that actually gives a shit?

Anyway i realised that sometimes, people does get over competitive. I mean in the past in sec or primary sch, you would never wanna help your classmates out (not me la) because you dont wan them to fight over the top 10 places with you. I dont have to, cuz i always am in the top ten. HAhahaha! Anyway when i entered Uni or JC, i didnt think there was a need cuz whatever marks you get, you get it. No rankign no nothing. but i guess, till now i still can see remains of such competitiveness. And it really sucks big time.

Physics paper is on thursday! Physics! Physics!!

Am being very bored these few days but yet, people asked: Why cant you just open your book and study?
I know thats is like one way to let me pass time but that is so last resort!
Went shopping with mummy on friday, before that wanting to treat her Korean food.
I told you the korean wave is sweeping thru my family.
But when i saw the price- thirty over bucks, i told my mum i treat her thai food. Lolx.
And we went for Thai buffet at this semi authentic place call Siam Kitchen. I love it there you know.
Of cuz, its buffet style and i can order as many rounds as i wish, and i think the waiter is super unhappy with me.
I ordered at least 6 rounds of Fish cakes and sumwhat rounds of Kang Kong. *Slurp*
We spent the afternoon eating and moving off to City Plaza to shop. Hahah Contrary to popular beliefs, city plaza is not a Auntie-shopping plaza. They are actually wholesalers...so you can jsut browse the hugeee range of clothes over there.
Meiting & Juan- we go there and shop after my exams ok!!?
I woke up this morning, setting my heart to reallly really rush thru the computing book and i realise I CAUGHT NO BALL. i just cant understand!!

Function prototype? Invoking a function?
bits and bytes? GL? Vertex?
Huh?

i just cant get it. And when i went online, i realise that only 1% of my contacts are online and those are the people whom u add them but dont chat with them. Ergh.
I have like 4 more papers to go and after that, its off to find work and get myself a VP.
i.e Vice president.

I watched tv early this morning- some china Huang Feihong drama. And then they were talking about this girl who is going off to UK for 3 years.
Why must every single body be off for 3 years?
How many times this weekend have i heard that? 3 years 3 years 3 years.

I had enough.
I wish planes werent invented.

After the exams, i guess its Kbox + Shopping + working.
Like life can be any more interesting.
Maybe i should join this coming RCIA.

Jewel In the Palace

How many of you are into that serial drama?

Me!

And i finally finally finished it. yeah i know its exam time but awwww man~ i just love the show.

As i was watching it, it just occured to me that well, this is one of the few korean shows whereby the romance part of the story stands only 0.001%.

i watched the whole 70plus episodes and there is like only 4 of it whereby u can see them holding hands.

Arghh! I had to keep watching until i see them happily ever after then i am satisfied.

Well, love aint that easy. or rather life aint that easy.

Imagine, the emperor loves you. The minister loves you. Awww.

Envious. Of cuz la. The minister is younger and cuter.

In the end, the emperor died. And he gave up the woman he love to where she is the happiest at.

I guess that is what you call Love.

Anyway, vix the pig is really nice these few days eh! He buy dinner for me and pass it to me on a 5tonner. lolx!!! I was like- stunned. Huge army wehicle. Ohhh dunno isit a offence. Hmm.. anywya i got my dinner. Haha Nasi Lemak from Changi Village. lolx

Met up with Meiting to talk and well i guess sometimes, you already reached the max and you just cant stop. I just cant help it. I really dunno what to do le.

And she gave me the usual advice. The ones that everyone try to psycho me with. The advice that i myself wanna try it. But just cant bring myself to it.

She look at me and wonder why the hell have i become so patient. Why i can go thru all these for so so long.

i really dunno.

After that i did got a chance to talk to victor and he told me he just dont understand me. Why do i go thru all these. but i was touched by what he said. Cuz i know that no matter what i know they will always be there for me.

And then victor was like tryin to be a matchmaker. Haha...but i told him lo, better dont do things behind my back which i dont know of. He was like along the same line as meiting la...the usual get it over and done with kind of advice, you see.

i really dunno what to do le. I met my match. And i already lost my ablity to talk back le.

many people cannot understand what i am so depressed about. Neither can i really fathom why am i acting liek its the end of everything.
I guess thats why they call it depression eh? but no, i am not going to book myself into a asylum.

Went out with jacklyne a few days back to show for clothes and we really talk- about her of cuz. I mean i also cant understand why is she so unhappy with the fact that david wants her to be in his sight 24/7.

like i said to myself all the time - the grasss is greener on the other side. Always. That holds perfect truth.

things aint easy right now. And thins like these happen at the wrong time. Its exam time but i cant bear to be alone right now.

I really shld get a job asap.

not that i dont have faith. Not that i dont really have no trust. Its just that 3 or 4 years is not a short time.

At least to me.

Wrong timing. Really wrong.

Baptism is coming soon. And thats when i can finally see my god child up there, being accepted fully into the church, and in white with her, and promise to be her god mother to take care of her, be her spiritual guidance.

its a loong commitment.. And i love it. I love being able to go church a few times a week, to meet up with the rcia pp. To share with them, to be with them, to talk to them. And i am doing so in the next journey, probably next yr.

The sch is having its final week tomorrow! And then start preparing for examinations.

Haha then we start findin work. And well you know, i used to love to work at my previosu company. But of cuz i am not going back there, its gonna be so so so weird.

A few days back, Meiling called me. And she dosent call me unless she has something really really important. She told me that she heard the news and asked me not to be too sad, not to be too upset to cheer up. I kept quiet cuz i reallly dont know what to say.

Then she hung up saying :"I thought of calling to comfort you but you seemed happy, i guess there is no need to la!"

What am i to respond. Must i start sobbing like a broken tap? Like i haven done enough of that. Hahah...

Campus superstar is finally OVER!!

Zhiyang won. Honestly huh, i never liked him one cuz i tot he too gayish la. But well, after a while i realise he became cuter and his voice really good. Just too ' sticky' if u know what i mean.

I wanna join also!

OK?

说好的三年不见面用
我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定

就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了
我比以前还更爱你了

连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的
我更爱你了我想

他会告诉你的
你会记得我们的约定
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的
我更爱你了

As funny as it seems, these things are too much a coincidence.