some stuff just means more

"..misse me but i dun wan it be forever cuz wait if things happen? i dont wan regret cuz i never force u to stay here with me."

some stuff just means more than it appears on the surface. for the moment, i almost scraped the idea of pampering myself to get a manicure.

i still did though. O.P.I's latest colour range! =)

but still, that struck a chord with my thoughts and i realise, some things are so perfect and placed in my hands, i dont wanna lose it ever.

The on dwith lotsa overdue

Monday-

Weiluns bday celebration. Actually, on saturday, we had to return to school for xtra lessons. and it is then, that we decided to get a pressie for weilun and of cuz, buy him a cake and sorts.

Thus right after the 3 consecutive lectures (ctreme boredness), we asked him to settle himself at the nearby bench and presented him with 2 cakes. Sigh " no time lar, only got u cocnut and kiwi cakes". Still looking pretty happy, Wl says its ok. Appreciate our thoughts already. but with the guys aurrounding him, he thinks we going to smash his face with cakes. And we did. lolx!
I was the photographer, and lucky we chose the spot near gers toilet, when the cake throwing war started, the 4 of us just ran STRAIGHT into the female toilet. scremaing our heads off like crazy chickens. lolx!

Haha but we arent so evil lar, with a 8 ppl budget, of cuz we could well afford a great pretty cute cake. Sesame's street! lolx we think Bert looks alot like WL. lolx

Back into canteen. And trying to get the candles lit. lolx! So WL came to join us after aldred help him to wash off the kiwi cake in his hair. Ew ew ew! lol

After our lecture, we were contempplatign if we should go for the 3 hours EID lecture. which is extremely useless can! Anyway we decided to board the bus to JP and ended up at Crystal Jade. Arhh...eating all the small dishes. My picky taste left only one thing for me to eat- fried rice. bleah. while waiting for the food to come, we play table games and take more pics. lolx

its me, HQ and ML! June didnt manage to come. dunno where she went after lect anyway.

Trying to get the guys to do cute poses! lol succeeding!!! lol! =p After food, we watched soem thai movie about gays, metrosexuals and..maybe transexual? lolx. funny but meaningless la. First group outing by the way! so just glad we had fun. lolx

Wednesday-

Ah bang's bday. passed him the pressie, and i think he went for a date. whahah! didnt ask much cuz arh, not my business. lol ML say we have this ai mei r/s, which is obviously not true. we are jsu tppl who exchange presents but dont talk in school. lolx! Today in elct, he sms me, asking me to look out for him in his new tee. lol! I didnt realise was that fitting. Qj accompany me to buy at Bugis, this white tee with dino carryign a ipod. lolx so not ah bang can? but he did mention that luckily white is his fave colour so yeah he likes it. guess that all that matters. lolx!

ML bday is coming, and now that WA is outta the picture, its up to us friends to celebrate this special day with her. sigh. Its really sad that in just 1 week, i have 2 couples breaking up. Now whats there to look forward in a r/s? ML asked me yesterday in the midst of lesson ' how did u get over your r/s". i duno. sometiems i wonder, if there wasnt sum1 aroudn me, would i have made that decision? probably not. i drag it on for almost a year, and when i finally did it, i felt heartless. but after a while, i didnt feel a thing. but when i am sitting here all alone by myself, i definitely would let my thoughts wander. but thoughts are still thoughts after all, its just digging up past memories in my brain and tryna fit them into the present. which is of cuz not possible.

Thursday-

Was driving in the rain today and when i heard this short commentary by Gary, Cao ge. his new song is call "betrayal" (translate on ur own lar), and well, its not gf betrayign her bf by screwing aroudn or what. its just subtle betrayal when you think of your exes when u are around your present partner. thats betrayal. however, from the man himself, he says its fine at least u dotn do things to hurt your present partner. Hmm. i simply cant fathom my guy to think of his ex. selfish- yes i am. Thats me, what.

qj made aglio olio today. pardon if i made mistake in my speliling. lazy go check dictionary.com. Hmm nice. always loved prawns. lolx!

Heard a fab track by Rain today. desperately tryna download!

Tomorrow friday le. sho fast. gettign new hp in less than a week! *yippeee* dun wanna lose it again. *prays n crosses finger*

Tmr qj acc me to mass! arh. lurve weekday mass. cuz its jsut a break from the ehctic schedule. *grins*

The one with the headache

ergh. i hate quarrels. i hate it when i did something wrong and i had to lie my way through. i hate the way things got screwed up, domino effect on everything in the way. bugger. i hate it all.

first week of school is over. and well, things are going rather a-ok. gotten my bday pressie from ahbang. and he is a freaking cute guy when it comes to giving pressie. the whole on purpose act of passing a pressie 'secretly' just dosent seem so secret cuz in fact makes it a whole lot obvious. of cuz, in others eyes its not only just a bday pressent. and indeed, he said it wasnt purely a birthday gift. But hmm, contrary to what the girls think, he did say that its a thank-u gift for introducing him the holiday job.and oh yeah, initially i thought its a barley drink in return. hahah he gave me this death note necklace n ring set. what is even cuter is that he drew the death note character in the card and every letter is written in different colour and days b4 my bday. lolx. not bad, he thought of prep the card before hand. hahaha. fully appreciative of that. haha! nona ask what im givin him for his bday which is approaching, and i have no idea. shirt i guess since he liek always decked out in the same kinda clothes. hahah..

Over the weekend i caught the Mahjong movie. and funny as it was, i didnt quite catch the game rules etc. i watched MJ2 with jin, and things wasnt that confusing. the 2nd one wasnt much abt the game...but well, it did brought back memories when i was watchin the 3rd installment. Hmm. but memories are still memories, no matter how gd they were, they must choose to stay away.

school starting tomorrow again. back to the times of fun and laughter. haha aint driving tomorrow, so gotta take the train etc. Sigh. when i used to drive freq, i wished i was on the train cuz i was so sleepy but no matter wad must open wide and concertrate. but for now, i wished i am driving tml, so can slp later. ergh!

我以为....

Drove to school today because the thought of 6 hours lecture makes me damm sian. tempted to just skip school like what i did yesterday. haha and went out for lunch qith qj and ended up with huge migrane. serves me right for skipping school i guess.

Anyway i was cruising along the highway when i heard this really great song. and it just striked me that moments ago, i could have been me. sometimes, people keep thinking that all you wanted was a replacement. damm, i dont.

miracles happen if u are there at the right place at the right time. i always reckon that God gave me lotsa miracles, and all i pray for is that i never lose them. Thats why i get ever so pissed by a single outta place strand in everything. yesterday when we were out having like hot drinks, i said something which probably left my mouth before it went through my brain. and i was just caught up in the spur of the moemnt, thinking about how guys are just so superficial. they may say they treat u like you're the only girl in the world, but what happens? they turn their back and change. i alway sprided myself for being able to spot them. But after what happen with Jin, i realise that aaybe its not tht easy after all. but i give myself a pat on my shoudler and tell myself that i am blessed to make a clean break this time.

screw everything else that i used to love about him. screw the floppy hair, the full height, the adorable grin. Focus on the bad parts of it all. So weird sometime, how can i finish it off everything then reminencse about it. Same age old problem dawn.

Went for 2 lectures today. One is on chinese tradition and etc. The lecturer must be mad to screen X-rated films. there i was sitting through poor villagers having sex like every 20 mins of the show. Dam, everytime it appeared on screen, i just covered my eyes. Freaking prude to do that i know. hahaha! it just turns me off. An Xrated show that i have zero interest in. Ew. Ew. went home and told mummy about it. lolx!!! she wa slike, what kind of teacher gives uall this kind of movie de.

Second elective lagi best. 3 hours slot. but he says usually take like 1 hour only. finish up assignment at home and hand in for marks can le. lol! great choice. Non examinable somemore.

Tuition tomorrow again. Hahah Sheena's mum ask if i wanna increase the fees, yeah considering its freaking far and the toil on my car petrol and parking charges - i said nevermind to her. Like increase by what le? I duno. so i said its ok. lol!

原来你是真的已经离开我...

Had kbox session with Juan n Meiting yesterday...and well its stunning how things take an abrupt turn. Its been ages since I last caught up with them, and I realized that sometimes, you get what you least expected.

There are people that are least expected by my decision, there are people who are least expected by a meant-to-be forever couple to break up, there are People who are least expected by a doting guy;s change in behavior.

Least expected. 2 words. but carries alot alot of meaning and reminiscing.

I read juan's blog and its funny that when memories past and you are faced with reality, how desperate you wish to be able to move back in time. and treasure what you lost again.

I hate loneliness. I hate the feeling of being alone at a lonely place and start regretting- what if?

I was on train and suddenly, i wanted to meet victor they all for dinner. I told them i going le. but after like 10 mins, i sms them and said i going back le. i was reaching and far from my place, but still i got off the train at Bedok and took a bus back. Sat on the bus and look out that dark sky...This place used to be familiar. This place use to make me the happiest and saddest person. I could have my day carried out like i am the luckiest person ever, or yet, kick myself for being such a foolish person.

I ask myself- am i too hard hearted a person? What if i back off and offered another chance? would things be better? Or not. But i guess, like what someone used to tell me, the problem with mankind is we are never satisfied. The grass looks greener on the other side. I prayed for an answer for many months, and i got my answer. but for many frequent split seconds, i lie on my bed, and realized with a jolt, that i am living in a brand new world now.

He called a couple days back and told me that i could have my stuff back if i wanted. I see no point. because i already packed his stuff and kept away. The xmas package is still on my table, maybe i should start thinkin what to deal with it.

天空突然一片辽阔....
原来你是真的已经离开我.......
在我不熟悉的世界过新的生活........

was in school chatting with the girls and i broke the news. Haha i actually laughed. How crude. But then Meiling asked me...what if ah bang and qj comes after me who will i choose. Now thats really funny cuz never had i thought of ah bang. haha him and his weird dressing. Lolx. Meiling says qj is nice and sweet...but need to do something about the dressing. lolx! whats with her and her fetish for dressing? lolx.

Well well. Had a great day at school though! laughed so many times till bit hoarse. Jialat!

the one with the bday and new yr

Arhh so many festive holidays at one go! haha..and well, nothing much for new year. unlike last year's trip to esplande and end up getting stuck at Suntec city with no bus to return home. This year was a more quiet affair- watching vcds and drinking soft drinks and of cuz, eating peanuts. lolx!

watched legally blonde 2 and Singapore Dreaming! now THAt is the show i have always wanted to watch, sigh, what a sad show. i thought it was like this funny jack.neo type of movie.

pissed with vic cuz forever, girls are much more impt than friends. like if he gives up friends for a nice girl, i dont mind. but...ergh forget it lar. what people see and what i see is different. when one day she gets a guy, and screw him upside down, i would refrain from saying 'i told u so'- again.

Not making much new year resolutions- except maybe start by not sleeping in classes and actually listen instead of having all my notes end up in super perfect condition cuz i dont touch them at all. Hmm and maybe shld start acting like a demure lil girl! haha! buy more clothes and more shoes..haha maybe not shoes lar, too many liao le! haha.. did i mention i just bought one yesterday? Or was it the day before. Haha..


Yeah finally, turned 20. Meiting left a blog entry for me and well she is right, its finally MY TURN! i always laugh when ppl start blowing out their big 20 candles. and i'm usually the last. haha. Sigh getting older liao. isnt it funny? when u are younger, u wish u were older. always mentioning a rounded off age. but when u are at the start of the twenties, u wanna be 18. when qj bought the cake, he actually for a moment asked if i wanted 18 candles instead. haha!

Huiting, me and victor!

Im not the only one that eats alot! haha

My forever buddies! ^^
Group pic! just lurve the mango mousse cake!

Peirong, Xinying, Debbie and Me!
Yang and Vic- gaying it out! lolx
KTV!

Actually i did a booking at 930, cuz i got church till 9 and had to order food and drinks etc what. but at 920, vic called and said the timign changed. basket! i didnt change it lo, is th eperson who answered change the timing. i was like hopping pissed already. *grr* but nonetheless we still manage to make it to sing. just that we had food and cake at home loh!

As for the pressies, Vic and GY gave me somethign really great! Burberry Perfume! hahah altho not th eexact range i wanted, it is still quite a nice scent la. not cheap of cuz. =X QJ's 2 sisters gave me a forever frens bear..andits sittign dutifully on the couch. Haha.. The rest gave me accessories. ooo know what? Yang gave me this big bag of kisses and other chocs (tat taste damm great) and i didnt realise a gift box within the chocs until the enxt day. And coincidentally, yits the earrings i mentioned to qj and vic that its very nice. cuz my bro has the green one! and yang just coincidentally bought the pink one! what a small world!!! haha lurve it!

Is your birthday day 30 of the month?

Your Life

You are always surrounded by a circle of friends. You are friendly and fun to be with. Though you occasionally disappoint them by being stubborn, but over all, they love your qualities.

Your Love

You want to have full control ofYour Loveand that's not a nice way to treat your partner. You take your time in saying yes to his wedding proposal or if you are a man, you will not propose anyone until you are certainly confident which might take ages.

LoLx. saw this in the email. like how true can it ba? hahah Very??! lol...