Shhh...its a Secret

Ever since i started working here, the faults of the human heart showed through clear. All the pettiness no longer exist just in High school...but much more so in the working world. not that i minded - i like peace and quiet and of cuz, slacking. but its ok its not as if i will be here for long. they are still a nice bunch, getting me tea breaks and make tea for me. but probably jsut that since i am on such good terms with my manager..its best not having me hanging around during their lunch. And the guys - once they saw me and smirked " ooo you buying lunch ar?" i was so tempted to retort "fk off and shuddup". Harsh i know but sometimes..

Met up with the girls last night after RCIA. i guess this is what we call girl talk emergency. When i saw her crying her eys out, it saddens you. It makes you wonder why some people exist. Is love blind? Or its just that some people still believe only in love. Dont other practical stuff matters?

Was staying in and watching a Jay Chou Movie : Secret. and yes, its a great movie. as...unlogical as it might be. it makes you happy when he is so sweet. it makes you sad when he tried to play so hard to finish the time-transporting piece till he bled. but yes it proves - true love exist.. in movies.

Work...and work..and never stopping..

I realise that i have so caught up in everything that i have not noticed something. I did not realise that someone is going away. overseas what more. and its only when i strted to work up the new link list then i realise. but oh well, things do change dont they? and of course, you carry on your life...and just like that.

A couple of days back i went to a Wenjuan's birthday! its fun - to once again meet up with old pals. chatting with the babes and just gossiping like nobady business. of cuz, not as gossipy and bitchy like with the Uni babes, but still happy to be there. 21st birthday - a happy day for everyone. the age you strike freedom, have a key to whatever whatever (cliche yes i know). And i put in alot alot of effort to plan mine and hope it work out well.

I would love to post up pictures. but somehow people are so into putting flash (which makes u look pasty)and there are lots of me making weird faces, ill probably hid them back into my computer. so..yeah. leave it there.

Seen yvonne a couple of times but never really talked to her since the incident with kevin. But i realised something changed in her. She looks so radiant and happy. and i was not wrong - she has a new guy in her life.

A good friend of mine on another occasion - the same thing. the same sob story, the same being let down...and sometimes i wonder. If its not now, would it be later. is there no perfect person. if there is, would he continue the way he is right now?

you can many many shows, make comments about many mnay issues in the story plot: laugh at stupid love gesture, stupid decisions or even stupid women you rolled your eyes at. but when the exact same thing happened to you - would you do the same?

i never could tolerate a slip in a guy's character and i never believed in the phrase "men change after a while. they treat you nice, and after a while, they slip.". I used to think i was strict with such beliefs. but after a while, i see the people around me and i wonder. Isit because you make excuses for them?

And so i tell you my friend - that maybe it hurts. maybe it tears you apart. but hold on. because the more you give in, the further he will drift. because if he cares, all these wont happen after all.

Some friends look at me in awe when i told them them what happen with the anniversary present. I felt bad - i do. but i know, if i dont do that. i will never make my stand. If i never let him know that i am capable of doing that extent, he will just thought that by making stupid comments, i will take it down. I wont. and hence, you lose. i dont win but at least...

Been catching up on Will and Grace- yes i know, months down the road and i am still hooked on it. :) its nice.

Nich is away on soccer training trip and...funnily, i do check the NUS Soccer Blog. My friends say i just cant trust someone fully can i? I could. but i need proof. call me logical, call me practical - but sometimes love cant just be an emotional thing.