My closure

And you think that things will never surprise you. i honestly hate surprises. pretty much any one knows i am not a big fan of them. i never like unexpected events much less appreciate them. No i would not squeal in joy or rush into somebody arms to give a huge sloppy kiss. its so not me.

and so when the elast expected thing happened. i was at loss. ther ei was sitting right in front of my computer. the least expected name came up, the least expected dialogues came up. my response to it was pure....spechless. no response just as yet. and i ran down and seeked teh person whose advice i seeked the most..and i still cannot figure out what is this that is happening.

if my life was a movie, the sudience might just go "...." - nothing. but for me and my poor jittery heart, it was everything. it was verythingi asked for, prayed for even. and sooner of later, the flicker of hope just extinguished and i never looked back. Maybe once in a while, while i am driving, images just flashd through my brain. and i feel this sudden pang. but other than that - pretty much i got used to it. and now, i am just at total loss.

i trusted my instinct and of cuz that of my valuable buddy's advice and seeked closure. it aint easy lookin the time strike the designated hour. it aint easy to keep your nerves in check when u are approaching your destination. it aint easy. so what do u do? inhale and exhale and try very hard not to trip.

i didnt get the answer i wanted. but at least i could fall asleep every night with peace. and that my friends, i call it closure.