bullshit.

u are just a fuckload of bullshit.

was blog hopping and you will be very amazed at how much ppl do love each other. i mean are you sure? are you sure u love him or u are just in love with the idea of love? i reckon the latter. these few days just became this mist of uncertainty. i settled into this new routine that didnt include him. not in the things i do, the things i talk about and the people i think of. it is once again this time again in my life. there was once that someone told me i was committment phobic..committment phobic is when you cant get married isnt it? everytime in between every stage i always made sure there will be someone to take over - not one time i would have a empty gap in betwwen. i know~ it is not the best way to handle. but..i thought about it the whole night. switched my phone off. lay in bed and thought.can i really carrying on this way?half guilty half smirking because its fun to live my life like this. but when i am home everything becomes back to normal. settling into the life of hacing someone far far uber far away. i woke up in the mornin saw the msgs and i really hate to reply. i hate to think of what to reply. ihate to even think that i have to reply something that is not wad i am thinkin. it sucks.

Idiom magic

Its the usual act of booking tickets online - and when i looked at the option to choose popcorn combo, i stopped.

i stopped because it made me smile. I stopped because it was such a small act but yet, it can make me think over it for weeks.

today oml was teaching me this new chinese idiom - about how you can climb the mountain many times and one day you will see the tiger.

i mean of cuz i know that but...i never go think about it so much.

i see it as repairing the gaping hole in my life. without doing anything against the rules. i am fine.