梁文音《我不是你想像那麼勇敢》

its a song that brings many many emotions. the first time i heard "最幸福的事"..i realise that this is exactly what i would feel as i lay in bed and think back the time that past me by. and this strong just struck , with the clever storyline..the punchline..笑容呢？

for many a times, i thought back and wondered what is it about me that could capture those wonderful moments in the past. and i wondered what about me now that i have to be defensive about. sharp replies became my thing. i wish i could laughed it off like in the past.

i went back to sign the papers yesterday. and going back always makes me take deep breaths. the same breaths i took whenever i went for work. the moment i got off the bus..the moment i entered the lift and the moment i took a look around the office. the same overwhelmingness came back.

i went to sign the papers, talk to my colleagues and wandered closer to the back part of the office..and i realise 'memory' just past me by. it how funny present and memory seems to mirror what you expected. i grimace and told my self - screw it.

and so i saw her walked towards the person she least wanted to talk to, or at least that is what it seems. her forced smile telling so many stories behind it. there she was, so vulnerable. and when he looked up and went back to whatever is less important...she pranced out of that sickening area and pretended all is fine.

but i know. i know it aint that simple. despite how much she complains, how much she rolls her eyes and say that she dont give a damm. every time she closes her eyes, she could imagine how much it hurt.

You know how it is when you thought you were at the right place, at the right time? and you look back wondering if it was the right person, the right decision, the right place, the right time?

i heard this wonderful song that i could really use it on a wedding. { Jason Mraz "Lucky" }

what is considered to be your best friend? the best friend you will be marrying. you know so many a times i have heard people telling me that the person they love is also their best friend. and how does that work?

do you best friend make you feel like you need a long long rest? does your best freind makes you feel like there is just a intersaction and each moves on in seperate path?

i cannot picture how things works anymore