it's so hard..

indeed, very. its like i have reached this bridge and i dont think i cant move on.

there is so many aspect but i cant balance them all. there aint enough time to do everything. and when you thought that you could somhow depend on someone to help you, you have inevitably distanced yourself. oh is everything causing that huge gaping hole.

and i think to myself - lose it or keep it. would i regret if i lose it. or would i be digging a deepr hole to keep everything running on low fuel and bad engine.

like life isnt complicated enough.